My latest set of updates will be in blue.

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10/07/01

I'll just get straight to the updates:

Added Chapter 10 to A Matter Of Family

The AUs of NASCAR and SAR are up and available for browsing to see what you think of them. I need your help in my NASCAR AU. Just enter it and vote for what you think I should decide on. Please?!

New Short Story called Powder

New TEASERs for Left Behind and Water Rising in the Fanfic in the Works page

New page: Who You Are is coming soon==Check it out!

I updated the Jeff Gordon Stats in the Refuse-2-Lose page

Okay, I have more updates but it's really late and I'm tired. I'll try to get the rest of the updates up tomorrow or so. Refuse :}

10/03/01

Hey, just wanted you all to know that the site will be updated this weekend. Majorly updated. Lots of new stuff. Sorry I'm takin' so long, but the whole Sept. 11 thing really put a damper on my writing for a bit, but now I'm back to full writing power! Ha ha! In the meantime, why don't ya subscribe to my new Mailing List. A bunch of you were asking me for an updates mailing list, so POOF! Now ya got one. :} Thanks for all the great e-mails! Keep them comin', I love 'em! Later! Refuse :}

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8/26/01

Hey! Um... Well, this page was updated on the 22nd, but me having my head in the clouds, I didn't hit the "Publish Page" button and, well... It wasn't updated. My bad! Thanks to Chelsea for the e-mail askin' when I was updating it. I was like, I did update it! Then I check and, "Oops." At any rate, the updates for the page and explanation for my lapse in updates is below. SORRY! for the inconvenience. Refuse :}

8/22/01

Gosh! Sorry for the long wait, peoples! I went on vacation for about a week and a half, came back and didn't have an internet service. I just got it back about a week ago and have been trying to get this page updated, but I am staying at home for the summer and helping my folks on the farm. We'd just started harvest and it's a circus! I'm now back at college, so I'll hopefully have more time for you guys! I DO want to thank all you lovely people out there that have been sending me feedback! I check my mail and, "Wow!" THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH!!! I mean that! :} Plus, I pretty much got the gist that ya's want the end of "Out Of Nowhere", like, two months ago. Well, I'll stop gabbin' and give ya the update. It's loaded!

*New Poll on the “Home” page
*Added some TEASERS to the “Fanfic In The Works” page-More will be coming soon
*FINISHED “Out Of Nowhere”
*ADDED Chapter 3 to “I Want To Be A Cowboy, Baby!”
*ADDED a Short story/song fic called “Somewhere In Between”
*ADDED a new COMPLETE story called “The Gift of a Second Chance” which was Co-Written with AJLover, a fellow BSB fan and web friend
*ADDED a new page called “Refuse-2-Lose”, it explains my pen name and has other stuff, too
*ADDED a new IN PROGRESS story called “Backstreet Boys: The Movies”
******I am nominated at the “RTD” Fan Fiction Awards! Please, vote for me! Stories up for it are: “Seven Days”, “Out Of Nowhere”, “A Matter Of Family”, “Crash and Burn”, and then me, Refuse, for Best Author. Please, vote for me!

Some notes: I'm currently working on the end of "A Matter Of Family" and will have it finished SOON. That will most likely be my next update. I am puttin' together the "Search and Rescue" Alternate Universe. Look for it to be up soon!! I also added a couple new AU ideas to the Alternate Universe BSB Fanfic section. Tell me what you think of it. :} OH!! Almost forgot, in the Old West AU page I've posted the next five or so book summaries in that AU. Check them out! The next OW AU book is coming soon! Keep yer eyes open for "Desperado" right after "A Matter Of Family" is finished! Well, I gotta go! Bye! Refuse :}

7/04/01

Happy 4th of July, peeps!! Hope ya's have a good one and stay safe! :} Okay, added "I'm Already There" and "You're Not Alone" in the Short story/song fic section. "You're Not Alone" is the sequel to "Crash and Burn" WHICH, I might add, received 1st place in the 2001 Spring Dreamer's Sanctuary Awards!!! Wahoo! Thank you!! I'm absolutely giddy now! LOL The END of "Out Of Nowhere" is coming, people! I'm almost done! Just give me a day or so, 'kay? I've added another story idea to "Fanfics In The Works" called "Left Behind?". Check it out, I'm not sure of it. Tell me what you think? Also, be on the look out for the first chapter of "Justifiable Fear" soon! PLUS, the ending of "A Matter Of Family". Catch ya's later, Refuse :}

6/13/01

Added Chapter 9 of "Out of Nowhere", should be finishing that story up with about one more chapter and epilogue! "Justifiable Fear" is here! I have put the prologue up, I'll get chapter one up as soon as I finish "Out of Nowhere". I recieved a wonderful award from "The Hush" for Seven Days, plus an awesome graphic for the end of Seven Days. Check 'em out! Well, that's all for now. C-ya! Refuse :}

6/03/01

Added Chapter 9 to "A Matter Of Family". Hey, sorry this didn't get updated when I wanted it, but field work got real busy here and I haven't been online this whole week pretty much. Living on a farm can be damn trying sometimes! :} Well, at any rate, I hope you enjoy the chapter. I am expecting to update "Out Of Nowhere" soon, but I won't say when 'cause who knows what can happen! Well, see ya next update! Refuse :} ....P.S.-Did anyone else think that BSB cbs TV special kicked major butt?! I loved it, but it ended too abruptly! *pouts*

5/24/01

Added Chapter 8 to "Out Of Nowhere". Added a new short story/song fic, "These Are The Moments". Oh, and a side note: My story "Thriller" will not be updated until it is finished. Why? You ask? Well, to tell you the truth, it's a very complicated story to write and I want to make sure I get it right. Plus, I'm gonna have it Beta read, too. When it's done, that is. SO, you won't be seein' anymore of "Thriller" for a while. When it's done, I'll post it in it's entirety. Okay? One more thing, the next chapter of "A Matter Of Family" will be up before the week is out, so keep yer eyes peeled! :} Toodles! Refuse :}

4/30/01

Sorry for the wait, peeps!! Okay... Added Chapter 7 to "Out Of Nowhere" and Chapters 7 and 8 to "A Matter Of Family". I also posted a new short story/song fic called "Like The Rain". I posted Chapter 2 of "I Want To Be A Cowboy, Baby!", it shoulda been up before, I thought I'd already put it up, but... Oh, well :} I deleted my "collages" section, deciding it was just takin' up space and you can see all my collages with my stories and the pages. I have three new fic ideas up in "Fanfic In The Works", check 'em out! I have added several links to my links page and created some of my own banners that you can link me with in "Link Me". I added a page called "My 'B and B' Concert Pics", which is a small collection(31 photos) of pictures I took of the BSB's Black and Blue concert. I've posted them in order of the concert and I've added my own comments. Check 'em out!! :}

OH!! And some of my stories have been nominated at the 'Dreamer's Sanctuary Awards'!! Thank you--You know who you are! :} Please, go and vote for my stories if ya like them! Here are the nominees and the categories they're up for: "Seven Days"-> 'Best Novel', 'Best Action/Suspense', 'Best Group Story' ... "A Matter Of Family"-> 'Best Novel', 'Best Action/Suspense', 'Best Group Story' ..."Crash and Burn"-> 'Best Short Story', 'Best Drama' .......Well, that's it! Please, vote for me! :} Oh, and nominate some of my stories for the "Pure Imagination Fanfic Awards"!! Please? Well, Hope to update again soon! Refuse :}

3/20/01

Added Chapter 6 to "Out Of Nowhere" and Chapter 6 to "A Matter Of Family". I also have a new feature, the "Fave BSB quotes & song lyrics". Go and add your favorite quote or song lyric! Plus, check out the one's already there! Peace out, peeps! More updates soon!

3/16/01

Whoo! Lots of Updates, peeps! I have fixed the links to the sequel of 'Seven Days', "Out Of Nowhere", and to a new story, "I Want To Be A Cowboy, Baby!". My new story, "Thriller", is up to the Prologue, just to wet your appetites! :} My story 'Who You Are' is down still, I've decided to not post it here. I'm gonna re-write it and improve it a bit. It was my first BSB fic, so I want it to be up to the level I am at now. It'll be back someday! I promise!

My OLD WEST Alternate Universe is up!! I have the whole tabboo up and workin', the only thing missin' right now is my drawings of AJ, Howie, and Brian in their Old West attire. I've been havin' some probs with my damn scanner. Kevin's and Nick's drawings are up though, check 'em out! As a side note, these drawing are just pencil sketches, so be nice! I may eventually make some more detailed, color ones later on. The first story in the OW AU(A Matter Of Family) is up to five chapters, soon to be six within the next day or so. So, go and take a look-see and tell me what ya think!

I've added collages for the stories: Out Of Nowhere, A Matter Of Family, and I Want To Be A Cowboy, Baby!. Check 'em out! The O.O.N. collage gives ya a glimpse as to what Lalita looks like! I've also added some Links: to Fanfiction.net and to a fellow BSB fanfic writer and Web friend, ShiLru's BSB fanfic site. ShiLru has an awesome Fanfic Awards feature you chickas ought to check out! Go and nominate stories and authors for the categories!! Further details of the Awards process is on her page. Come on, go and check it out! Well, that's all for now. Be sure to check back soon, 'cause I'll update more SOON!!

3/5/01

Hey! I finally got this site goin'!! :}

---Well, not much for updates 'cause it's new. I will have my missing 3 stories in "My BSB Fanfic" up this Saturday(3/10/01) along with the first parts of my OLD WEST Alternate Universe in "My BSB Alternate Universe Fanfic". I will also add links and some collages, too.